Feelings are over rated. (Derp)

Feelings are over rated.
a rush of diverse emotions invade my mind

and play with it, like little demons

laughing at my state of vulnerability and terror

they go up and down

they twist and release

they hove on me and then lift me up in the sky

to later see me fall. 

and just when Im about to crash on the grownd

they save me, and lift me up again.

because they know that need to die

that I have to crash and break to stop feeling.

Love and Selfishness are there, one excuses the other,

Jealousy they have given birth to and that is the one who

controls them both. like a mischiveous child when has learn to

behaive this way or the other to get what it wants

so I hate them.
and they love me.

Alas! if only I could hate you as I hate this feelings

if only you could love me as this feelings love me...

how to evisarate them from myself?

how to disappoint myself from you? when there is

no one to compare you with, and the samplings

I have take are just not good enough. 

so again we embrace the so far eternal cruzade

of you looking for the right one.  

and me, here, waiting for you to realized that

the right one is me.

May 30, 2011

u = me

I am Crying.
for something I should not care... but I do. and it sucks more that I intended to be. 
I am crying
for something I should not... but I cant help it. 
I am crying
remembering something that had also happened to me.


April 15,2011

fb comment and TRUST ME

"you have no idea what happened and how does it makes me feel... the only thing I know I can do without screwing anyone is to sit in the dark and think about it while staring at the emptiness of my mind; to later find out that without realizing it, I was crying. so then I am mad at myself, but the rage is no bigger than the sadness..."
fb, April 16,2011
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TRUST ME
April 16, 2011


trust me, I cannot be trusted.
I want to know about you, I want you to tell me your story,
 your deepest feelings, your sadness and your joy.
but I cannot be trusted. I will take it and transform it into something else.
not a rumor, but a story for the world. 
I will never reveal  who you are or your name, but they will know...
So you will see it, your eyes will be burned as they go by letter by letter,
 your soul will be aching, your rage will increase
your hate will be on the way and you will let me know about this.
shot me with words, shot me with pain. yet so delicately you kill me.
but die it is not what I want, because the pain you make me feel is what gets me going...
alas!  when I'm sad you are happy, when I'm happy you are numb, when I'm numb, you don't care.
alas! when you are sad, I am sad too.  
and keep on like this, I cannot bear.

How College Grades Work: (by S.P. Wolf)
A+ = A total geek!
A= Awsome you Pass!
B= Better than a C
C= Could been better or Congrats you didn't fail!
D= Duuuude, you almost fail!
F= Fucked.