Ugly

 I walk in the shadows of depression
like a phoenix I need to resurect.
so I find my oun diversion to lift up my spirits
it doesn't matter anyways
you are not here.

I look into peoples faces, not to find you
but to forget you.
I look into their faces whit the hope to find
the one who will conquer my heart.
none of them seem good enough.

they are not good enough.

what to do? where to go? who to find?
but the only one I think about its you.
and you are not here.

you are there.  with her
and I am jealous.
her beauty overtrows many.
her skin, looks so white and softh
her eyes are beautiful and big
even I can't look away from them.
her smile its stunning as well
it takes my rage away, but it replaces it
with something else.

so the mirror hates me more than ever
what I see I don't like.
what I try to change, doesn't change
what I try to enhance, doesn't help.
ugly I feel, Ugly.
Ugly I must be.  even if I look my best,
compared to her I still ugly.
ugly outside, ugly inside.

because I should not be jealous,
because I should not have this unconfortable
feeling on my chest.
because I should be happy for you
because I should not be wanting to be her...
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SPC / Winter Wolf